As you can see, it's over now. I have officially left Freeland Elementary/Middle School forever. This is the saddest day of my life. I have never felt more torn between in my entire existence- and trust me, it's not a good feeling. I had to step out of the place that has been my world... everything I've ever known and loved. This place is much more than a school to me- it has been both a haven and a prison. Either way, I know that things will never be the same again, for any of us. It was just very anti-climactic and heartbreaking. I sat in Mr. T's and watched Joey and Gimbi playing some battle game on the computer, as I watched and waited as the minutes counted down. Katie, Flan, John, Syno and me went to the elementary side. There was absolutely no way that I would leave this school without saying goodbye to all my elementary teachers! We would have gotten in soo0o0 much trouble if we'd gotten caught, but I ran like hell up the back way, so nobody saw me. It was pretty cool- I felt like a secret agent, or something. Haha. Anyway, we stopped in to say goodbye to a couple of the teachers- I could tell that they were all ready glad to us- then I was going back down past the nurse's to class when I saw Mr. T in the hallway! I told him I was going to Mr. K's room- if he'd seen me I would have been so screwed! I turned and ran the other way and came around by the office. Then I went back and we stayed in Mr. T's. He wouldn't let us leavee! It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. There have been good times and bad times- we've all been through so much together. Don't know for sure what's going on today- I might be going to the thing at the park tonight but not positive. I think I may just stick around here and think. I may not be doing anything at all. Wow. More later. Best of luck, everybody. You'll always be home to me, FMS.
~*~LeAh LiZ~*~
((WhEn YoU tRy YoUr BeSt BuT YoU DoNt SucCeEd*WhEn YoU GeT WhAt YoU WaNT BuT NoT WhAT YoU NeEd*WhEn YoU Fe3L So TiReD BuT YoU CaNt SLe3P*StUcK In ReVeRsE*WhEn Th3 TeArS CoMe StReAmInG DoWn YoUr FaCe*WhEn YoU LoSe SoMeThInG ThAt YoU CaNt ErAsE*WhEn YoU LoVe SoMeOnE BuT iT GoEs To WaSte*CoULd It Be WoRsE?*LiGhT WiLL GuIdE YoU HoMe*AnD IgNiTe YoUr BoNeS*AnD i WiLL TrY To FiX YoU*)){CoLdPLaY}
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[9-3-96 = 6-9-05] Fre3LaNd FoReVeR: WhIpPeTs TiLL We Di3!
Whoa... 4 more days, man! This is inconceivable! I only have 1 more book left, and it's being returned on Thursday. We're still doing a little bit of work, but nothing too bad. We're getting ready for finals- Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. Those 3 days, coincidentally, are also half days. It's gonna be weird. ((This could be the end of everything!)) I am happy to announce that Coldplay's newest album, X & Y, landed yesterday, with great success. I've already got it, of course, and it's phenomenal! I have Franz Ferdinand's "Van Tango" stuck in my head. Yesterday I was sitting in Algebra singing it- "Caretaker/he's king of the night/" It's killing me! LOL! It's an excellent song! Also, the Killer's "Andy You're A Star." The amazing guitar riffs are what gets these stongs drilled into my brain! Haha. Everyone is bracing themselves for Friday. It definitely hurts us Freeland kids more than anyone else. I mean, there's a little piece of all of us that just wants to stay right here and be little kids forever- we don't want to leave, and go out into this huge world of uncertainty. And yet, another part of us really wants to get on with our lives, and start our own futures, and break away from everything. No matter what we pretend, we all have our anxieties, and we all are going to miss this school. Not just the building, but the people inside it that made us who we are- teachers, other students, and the parts of our own selves that will die Friday. We're really not little kids anymore, and there is no turning back. But I'm not afraid of it. I know what I want to do, and I'm gonna go out there and do it. And nobody is gonna keep me from that. I'm in 1st period with about 10 minutes left, and I feel like looking at some Radiohead stuff. I'll try to write this week if I can, but what with finals and studying I'm not so sure. Anyway, I'll definitely be writing after school on Friday.
~*~LeAh LiZ~*~
((DoNt FiGht FoR ThE WrOnG SiDe*SaY WhAt YoU Fe3L LiKe*SaY HoW YoU Fe3L*))
<<*PrOmIsE Me SheS NoT YoUr WoRLd*>>
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Friday! Yesshh! Haha... Budda's party tonight, no idea what to wear to that, but that's oo00ok... sittin' here with Kayla doin' some homework. 3 more days 'til X & Y, but God only knows I probably won't be getting it for quite a while, yet. Figuress... More yearbook signings. I don't have a lot of room left in mine! People have written some really great (and really dumb) stuff. My favorites were from Tanya and Lauren W. It's hard to believe that next week is the end. Not just the end of another week, or even the end of another school year. But the end of us... together, here at FMS. It's crazy. You know how adults sometimes say to us, 'Time starts to go by a lot faster when you get older,' they're definitely right about that. 9 years seems like the blink of an eye- of course, it feels that way now. It didn't at the time- it was a slow, painful ascent up the steep slope to victory, but, little by little and inch by inch, we've gotten there, all of us. Gotta go, we're gonna be switching classes soon. More sentimentality and other stuff later.
~*~LeAh LiZ~*~
((My HeAd JuSt AcHeS WhEn i ThInK oF ThE ThInGs ThAt i ShOuLdNt HaVe DOn3*BuT LiFe Is For LiViNg We aLL KnOw*AnD i DoNt WaNnA LiVe It aLoNe*)){CoLdPLaY}
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Although I'm dying to get my hands on it (of course) you won't see me camped out in front of Barnes & Noble at midnight! (Although I probably would if left to my own devices, haha) Anyway, as the summer wanes, I'm starting to muster my courage. High School draweth nigh... Woopdy freakin' woop. Haha. I've got a lot on my mind concerning it, and plenty of other things, besides. Well, I'd best go and make myself sharp... nothing special going on, at the moment, but just taking precautionary measures... DeGrassi @ 8, I think, and something else might be going on later, but the fates have not informed me yet as to what that is. Hah! Well, more later, I suppose. (More tomorrow, I should say.) To my fellow Harry Potter friends- cheers! And don't read ahead! Sirius lives! (At least in our over-active imaginations) To everybody else- thanks a lot and goodbye!
